time to start blogging

i cant imagine the fact that whenever she goes on abloody trip..when she goes online on anythg, she cant leave a msg at all on fb or anythg?and this when i have repeated time after time. Ok, she is on holiday, i dont bug her..fine i let her b, i text her she dont reply, call her dont pick up...not like i call alot of times...if i dont pick up she get mad, i really have no place to rant...the gf is driving me crazy, she is waya, hav no chance to contact her, duno wat is she doin and everythg and sh can go on havin fun without thkin wat i feel her...at least she shud hav a decency to leave me a msg to know what she is doin, she dont say then she say i question her...for cryin out loud..if i were to do the same...u gona break up wif me already....crazy huh...That's my life...dont judge me, i've decided to be wif her cos i know i love her even if i am treated like shit at times....some ppl do not know the full story judge me, i have my reasons..yes i forgot our 2nd monthiversary, dont update my blog...i just lost focus..i'm changing job soon...moving to kl...need to move my career to a better place...need to not care ...learn to love myself more...but i cant...fml...seriously FML